One of my favorite stories in the Bible is that of Elijah’s. That is because of its connection to one of my favorite Christian novels – Francine River’s A Voice in the Wind (one of my favorite novels, period). I have a soft heart for coherent contradictions just as I have a sympathy for bodies that fail, minds that crack to vulnerability while still holding courage simultaneously.

Anyway, Elijah’s encounter with a still small voice in the wind is something that definitely always gives me goosebumps. And in re-reading that whole story sometime in 2025, I gleaned several truths that I wrote on some postcards hastily. The ink on the papers I wrote these insights have nearly faded, and this is my attempt to salvage some of the things I wrote on these postcards. Nothing might make sense, but I am sure I will revisit these and gain one or two things, so here goes:

1. Elijah simply appears in 1kings 17. He has gone through a lot before then, but we didn’t know his battles. The population does not know your struggle. Don’t be minding a world that does not know your story from the beginning.
2. Ravens and Zarephath: Help comes from unexpected places. The people you are relying on right now might not be where help comes from. Obadiah and the 100 is an example. Everyone has their source of support.
3. The story of the child ? (can’t really remember the story): Support becoming burden. We are carried so carry others – 1kgs 17.
4. A lot of running: We could be runing for all the right reasons, running through the right paths. But our legs need to stay still at some point – IKgs 18:12.
5. Fire incident: He did do something great but he was ALONE. 450 prophets against one person. He had God, but there is strength in numbers, even in all the failures that came with it. To perform the fire miracle, he had to tell people to “come near unto him”” (18:30).
6. Self-harm (18:28): What do you follow?Who surrounds you? Who do you live for? If it leads to and permits a lifestyle of self-harm, it is not helpful at all (Baal prophets).
7. You can be for people and of not…. (blurry). People confessed God which counts as a fulfilment of purpose for Elijah, but he wasn’t of them. They feared him, they…. (respected?) him but they hadn’t loved him …..
8. Slaying the prophets by himself (18:40): Choose your battles, bruv. Choose your battles. You can’t be causing fire to descend and also be killing people. It ain’t how that shit works.
9. 18:42: He put his face between his knees. Good Lord, the burden he carries.
10. Fujoshi drama (18:44): Should help and support be distant? Vox pop. 46: Hand again.
11. Breaking point (19:4): It is enough now o LORD. I think of the so-called race and I wonder why I am denying the human element. Eat ending grace for ourselves ???
12. The angel (Fujoshi drama) Food (6-7).
13. The question (19:10): I, even I only am left. By the end, it was not a nation that Elijah saved, it was a friend he got.
14. Arise, Eat: God did not castigate Elijah for wanting to die, for saying it is enough, take my life…………… God said, “Arise, Eat.”
15. Left his servant in Beersheba (???): ……………. trying to drag people down with you …… your experiences is not to influence … to make decisions like you are making. Projection.
16. Strongholds, Jericho, and Horeb….: What is my Jericho? What do I need to pull down? What do I need to walk through for forty days? What cave do I need to lodge in to hear God’s word, what cave do I need to run from to avoid Saul’s wrath?
17. Again, it wasn’t exactly jealousy for God as much as it was a desire to not be the only one.
18. Air… Earth… Fire… Water (a still small voice)
19. What doest thou here? Be honest, like my mom said once when I told her I was feeling a pang of loneliness, “that’s fine, no need to twist the reality. The last sentence – “I, even I, only am left, and they seek my life.” He was scared of being alone, he was scared of death.
20. Hazael, Jehu, Elisha: The first thing God did was assign institutional support systems.
21. Seven thousand: The next thing was to tell him that he was not alone.
22. Elisha: A like mind, a community of one that leads to a community of many. Elisha, unlike Elijah, knew how to not be alone. The servant left behind wasn’t what Elijah needed.

On different Gods leading to the Inscrutable Divine (I Kings 22:19-24)

1. 400 people saying one thing means there has to be some truth to it.
2. Micaiah saying something else after being shaken up by a king reveals another strand of truth – rather confusing
3. The truth is a lie. All these prophets not of the Lord’s… but still being used by a lying spirit from the lord just about reveals that there is a knowing of all the gods through which we are trying to access the Divine.
4. No God is real, BNo God is true but the spiritual, spirituals are as true as day.
5. All Gods are like the 400 prophets. They are right as rain, but only in so much as the spirituals need them to. Something could be true but not…. (what am I saying????)
6. Truth is complication, not saying the truth ???????

Song:

Be Slow – Harrison Storm

Better Days – Dermot Kennedy

Okay I would like to develop these points later.